Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Shoveling Snow, Milking Cows and Weaving Baskets
My shift starts at 6am. I am just about the only one awake,
and have been for over an hour. My morning routine is pretty much finished, and
I am ready to face the day. So if it snowed overnight, I am out there with
shovel and broom, to clear the walks before any old lady could break her hip
just outside the brothers’ house. This morning again, I spent about 30 minutes
clearing the 4 inches (10.6 cm) that had come down. As I was heaving shovels of
crisp powder, there was a certain sense of futility in my mind: I could see
that where I had started the ground had turned white again by the time I was
finished. So what was the point of clearing a driveway which would need shoveling
in just a couple of hours? Isn't this Sisyphus Revisited (he was the guy who
was condemned to rolling a stone up the mountain only to see it roll down
again- and that ad infinitum)?
But at the same time I experience something very refreshing
in my snow shoveling activity. Not only does it not require a lot of mental
power, its monotony is strangely soothing. The very fact that the same task
will be here again tomorrow renders this work remarkably stable. And I know
from gardeners and farmers that they experience similar emotions when they weed
their plots or milk their cows. As they repeat for the umpteenth time the same
tasks, they sink into a contemplative, zen-like groove.
People have long tried to explain why this is so, and what
takes place in the human heart to make a potentially mind-numbing task so
fruitful. The desert fathers of the 4th century Egypt used to weave
baskets and sometimes did not even sell them, but burnt them at the end of the
year. And yet they did not consider their job hopeless, on the contrary: they
considered repetitive work a good antidote for acedia. Acedia is the temptation
to not care about anything, to refuse love and sink into selfishness. Many of
us experience that temptation at times; one could even make the point that our
age has made acedia the fashionable outlook on life: a certain malaise, a lack
of drive or vision, just letting life wash over us.
So wise counselors and psychiatrists both advise people
thus tempted to undertake repetitive tasks: if it is not basket making, it can
be baking bread, scrubbing floors or, as in my case, shoveling snow. Such
tasks which repeat themselves ground us and make us understand that life needs
us, even if we don’t feel like it: a cow moos when it is not milked, an old
lady slipping outside my house might well clip me behind the ears. So being
needed helps us snap out of acedia, self-concern and depression. So next time it
is your shift to shovel snow, take out the trash or change the diapers,
understand that it is God’s gentle way to invite you to forget yourself and
love as if it really counted.